"Young Tendencies" (unreleased song)

“Young Tendencies” is another song from the COVID folder. In fact I remember this one being one of the first batch of songs I finished during my first huge writing binge in May of 2020. This was the same season I wrote the bulk of the songs off of my album “Nobody Really Makes Love Anymore”, and I really enjoyed this song at that time but just felt like it had no place thematically on that project. So it got put to the wayside.

And then ever since, it just has never found its way onto another project. I haven’t soured on it and there isn’t anything about it necessarily that I don’t like about it, it just hasn’t ever felt right to put it out.

It’s a pretty simple song with just two verses with a brief interlude between them. At its core it’s really just about growing up, and literally watching time pass you by in a way that nobody in my lifetime anyway had ever really experienced before. I didn’t want to write a “back-in-the-good-ol-days” kind of song, but I did feel called to reflect on some of the differences I felt at the age of 26 when it came to having conversations with old friends, (or even just the idea of having “old friends”) my relationship with food, how I perceived the world and its people, and my relationship with myself….compared to how it was when I was a teenager.

It seems there is substantially more evidence to encourage a feeling of pessimism as opposed to optimism these days, but I also think more than ever, attention is awarded to those who can monger the most fear, and attention/visibility/engagement can be monetized…so there’s incentive for everyone to constantly be showing us all of the worst things happening everywhere as opposed to any of the good people in the world actually doing good work. On one hand, I think every generation thinks theirs is the worst generation and that the world will end with their generation…and on the other hand I actually do think this current generation is going through some incredibly unique challenges compared to any other moment in history that do seem a bit unprecedented.

But in a way, maybe to determine how to feel about the prospects of the future, it’s good to evaluate the past to see if the things we feel are just those normal things people feel. And this song was me trying to look into the past, and evaluate those feelings, and those perceptions.

It was also just me sitting in my dark room with no sunlight for like 3 months writing sad songs.

Anyway, I enjoy this one and even the sort of crispy, android-phone recording has an interesting warmth to it that adds a cozy feeling to an otherwise melancholy song. Enjoy “Young Tendencies”

Lyrics:

Old friends new 
meanings to conversations 
Loose ends been 
meaning to find my patience  

It used to be fun 
to crawl out of bed and wonder what to do 
Now all of my young 
tendencies are old and bruised  

Food tastes like 
water inside a can 
New waste is 
taking up the land  

I used to want love 
Now I'm scared of what it might lead to 
A sign that my young 
tendencies are old and bruised 
 
I need someone 
to remind me of what children do 
Cause all of my young 
tendencies are old and bruised