"Once, Again" (unreleased song)

Hey everyone, back again today with another song from my voicememo’s folder on my phone. This one is a very new one called “Once, Again”

I wrote this one about a week ago. I was coming home from a weekly meeting with my team UNAPOLOGETIC. based here in Memphis, and on the drive home, which is about 10 minutes. Several thoughts were racing through my head.

During that meeting, we my peers played some of the new songs that they were working on and I was reflecting on some of the new displays of art that I heard. Before I could be too entrenched in that, I traveled to thoughts of what I have to offer, and if the messages that run through my body and be displayed in a facet that the world can enjoy…or is my gene complexion such that I can’t display my thoughts in a way that can effectively be received by the world. Before I could sink too deeply into those thoughts I jumped to family and friends, and reliving moments with people I care about. That quickly jumped to current events, school shootings and mindless violence that feels like it’s promoted or dare I say encouraged in both subtle and not-so-subtle ways.

And all of this lead me to feeling like I can never really think through things as deeply as I’d like before another thought comes along demanding attention, so often taking me away from the original thing I was trying to wrap my head around in the first place.

So essentially, I wanted to write a song that acted as sort of a love, or heartbreak, kind of song, but instead of the heartbreak being for a person, the heartbreak is for all of the thoughts that I wasn’t able to spend as much time with as I wanted. It’s a mixture of self-realization that my brain is too overstimulated, and also a farewell to the things I didn’t give myself enough time to thoroughly think through. Hopefully there is also a hint of a yearning for clarity that can be felt as well.

Not sure if this one will ever see the studio or not but it’s the first thing I’ve written in awhile that I actually feel decent about. Hope you enjoy!

(*voice memo of the whole song below for paid subscribers)

Once again
Once again, I have lost the feeling
I have lost a friend

Am I fit for all the needs this world seems it adores?
Little kids and pomegranate seeds spilled on the floor
Never want to feel like I've ignored a thought
But it's not if, it's when
I have lost that feeling once again

Once again
Once again I have lost the meaning
Wish I could make ammends

Social gatherings, an awkward me, or is it you
Celular defeat, a deafening of things untrue
Started, but I forgot how to bloom, I'm just
Waiting for the end
I have lost the meaning once again

Taken so far from home
Racing away from all
The things that I used to think about so strong
Seconds ago

Turning keys, oh please the processing is all I trust
Answers of an ease I can't receive in this ambush
Space in every case is what is crushed, I'm caught
Tangled in the trend
I have lost that feeling once again