"Gracie" (unreleased song)

Hello once again, sharing another song today from the voice memo vault on my phone. This ones called “Gracie” and I wrote it probably about two years ago now. (roughly)

This one was a bit tricky to write, but despite the fact that the performance on this voice memo is a bit rough, I do enjoy the song itself. I don’t want to call it a love song, though it is about love. It’s about letting go of a vision you might have had for yourself and a partner who didn’t work out, and accepting the fact that both of you are on different, more fulfilling paths than you were when you were affiliated with each other. But there’s still a slight tinge of an awareness to the feeling that something more felt like should’ve happened between the two of you…if that makes sense.

It’s tough because I didn’t want the song to feel like there was a sense of longing for this other person, because that’s not what it’s about, and quite frankly it’s not what’s felt in real life either and I didn’t want to paint myself as the narrator as feeling that way. But I think there is some truth in the fact that there is space reserved in your heart and in your being for people in your past that you’ve shared serious emotional bandwidth with. Even if you can confidently say you’re “past it”, and your love is reserved for someone new, I also don’t think there’s anything wrong with admitting to an impact that a past relationship experience had on your life, and recognizing that perhaps in another universe, where a few cogs are turned slightly different degrees, maybe something does work out between us. In this universe it didn’t, and we’ve both found our much happier endings, but I think it’s part of the human experience to think in various aspects of life, what if.

I found it hard to write a “what if” song while still keeping the understanding that the narrator is happy and fine and not feeling any sort of regret. I think those things can co-exist, but there’s a line that if you cross it, the narrator starts to sound like a bit of a shitty person haha. Anyway, I hope I achieved that with this one…I’m still dissecting it and I’m not sure if it’ll come out or not but as of now I enjoy it. Hope you connect with it as well!

Gracie
I'm thinking about you lately
And how I thought you'd save me
Save me from myself
Cause magic
I always gotta have it
Even if it's tragic
Tragic for my health

And I'll never see you at the finish line
But I'll still wait in line for you
Gracie just for you

Gracie
I know you're with somebody
You will so unlikely
Ever be without
And sadly
I'm no longer lonely
I have found the only one for me
Somehow

So I'll never see you at the finish line
And finally I enjoy the view
Gracie, so do you

I pair my insecurites
With my memories often
Impossible possibilities
But I know it's true

That Gracie
We are undeniably
Happier without
Each other in our hands
And surely
It is fortunately
Not the universe we
Thought that we had planned

So I'll never see you at the finish line
Never see you at the finish line
No I'll never see you at the finish line
But maybe in another life I do
Gracie, just with you